~click play on the above to enjoy the song.
Wednesday, 19 August 2009
Friday, 14 August 2009
Quest:-
Why am I feeling this way?
Is it that the string is getting longer? Where each ends are getting further apart?
There are so many doubts.
I truly want to hold on as much as I could.
The longer I hold on to, the more I lost the sense of purpose.
Wondering, whether we are still interweaving on each other's path.
Thinking back, the precious moments of the past.
However, past and present and future seemed like the sand and the sea water.
The sand and water are apart of the sea.
When they are mixed and shaked up, a beautiful complex pattern will be formed.
And the dispositions of the sand and water will always be different than before.
However, when things calmed, they both will be back in their own state.
The sand will be resting on the seabed, while the water is still flowing and moving forward.
There's a treshold between the solid and the liquid; or higher and lower density form.
Although the time lines are like heaven and earth, it is up to us to how we handle the flow of the present.
Here, I am questioning myself and my present feelings.
What are these waves of feelings?
So seasonal.
Sometimes bright warm and welcoming, sometimes dark cold and terrifying.
Truly, what am I to do with these? I do not know.
I believe that I do not belong to myself, so my feelings do not belong to me either.
I will just let it be.
No matter how hostile these feelings are, I will just let it be.
Always look on the bright side, the beauties of these wonders are brilliant.
Without the bad ones, we can't appreciate the good ones.
--Bad and good are just labels. In truth, their difference are whether they are favourable in our own point of view.--
Anyway, I am giving myself a few months time to truly unveil how I feel and what do I really want.
Same goes for the other side as well.
Hope that the other side will take the opportunity understand his desires and dreams too.
Hope that everything will turn out for the best.
And may each end's future will have happiness, peace and freedom whether it is still woven together or not.
We are on a quest of our own.
May this quest helps us find the key to our truest self.
Friday, 31 July 2009
Twain
This post was supposed to be posted earlier. However, I had to wait for sha zhu to upload the pictures and send them to me. So, it ended up 3 weeks later. (This post is to be dated on 9th of July 2008)
So far, I’ve not mentioned when sha zhu and I started back together. It was during last year around mid July that we decided to wait for each other, but we weren’t official for being together again. It was about the beginning of December 2008, when he came and visited me at my uni that it can be counted official, I supposed.
Anyway, on 9th July, we were on a date and it was our 1st couple-wear day. We went out to sing karaoke together. Then went to Hor’s place, play some sports and dinner with sha zhu and Hor’s family.
Here is a picture of my watch taken with sha zhu’s phone during the karaoke session.
The below are a few pictures of us wearing our couple shirts on that day. The shirts were bought during my trip in Melaka with my uni friends. In addition, I have to give credit to Hor for helping us taking these pictures.
Cherishing every moment together~~
Tuesday, 21 July 2009
Rest In Peace Grandpa
Wednesday 15th July,
When I was in the middle of work in my mom’s office, I’ve got news from my mom that my grandpa was in a critical condition. So, we rushed back home. My mom thought of going back to taiping alone with my auntie. However, news came that he left 1 day life. The doctor said that something had caused his blood contaminated and weakened/damaged his main organs in the body. So, the whole family went to taiping. Except for my grandma, she’s physically weak to handle the shock. We reached there about 7 or 8 evening. We were allowed to enter and visit him in the ICU one person at a time. When it was my turn, as I was standing by his bed side, I have no idea why, tears began to well up my eyes. He was already in coma. As if he was in a deep sleep.
Thursday 16th July,
After our breakfast, we went and visited him. I held his hand. I felt his hand’s muscle reacted, as if he was holding mine. His closed eyes moved a little at the same time. Somewhat, I felt that he knew my presence.
At noon, the doctor asked whether to take the risk for surgery or wait for his death. So, the elders in my family decided to take on the risk eventhough it just less than 10% chance.
The surgery was successful. The cause of the problem has been removed. He was saved but there’s still need to wait to overcome the critical time.
Everyone was happy and glad. However, this temporary relief had lead to further disappointment.
Friday 17th July,
After breakfast, we’ve received call from the hospital that the whole family needs to be there. The doctor said that his heart was getting weaker and anytime(less than 1 day) he can pass on. About 1.25pm he passed. My aunties told us that before he passed, they told him that he can peacefully move on and they will take care of my grandmother well. That’s when around that time he had passed.
Some were left behind to take care of hospital business and some went off to prepare for funeral procedures and ceremonies, newspaper publishes, tomb, etc.
I was one of those that stayed behind. We followed my deceased grandpa to the mortuary and then to my uncle’s home for funeral.
About evening, my grandma arrived. Initially, she looked calm. But as she was asked to see the deceased, she broke down to tears. It was a heart aching sight. All her children including my mother were crying and embracing her. Step by step she moved towards to coffin. At one point, before she reached the coffin, she was so scared that she dared not move towards it. Eventually, she came face to face with the deceased. Everyone was in tears. Truly a grieving scene.
Later on, everyone calmed down and continue the funeral ceremonies. The ceremony will be held for 3days 2nights.
Saturday 18th July,
The ceremony continues. Many people were lack of sleep and looked tired.
Sunday 19th July,
The day of entombment.
Everyone went and sent him off, except for grandma; she’s too weak to go.
The deceased will be having fire burial.
Most of us went back (KL) on the same day, including me. But I had to stay at grandma’s house for the night due to transportation convenience.
My mom and uncle stayed back to collect the deceased’s ash and handled a few minor funeral procedures the next day.
Monday 20th July,
My mom came and picked me up from grandma’s place, then sent my uncle back to Singapore.
Reached home about 9.30pm.
I’ve learnt a lot from this experience. Everything has a purpose in this life. I’ve gained many respects for the elders through this experience; I’ve learnt about funeral ceremonies; Learnt about letting go; Learnt about being true to one-self; Learnt about strength to move on; Learnt about religion and spiritual strength; and many more.
May my grandfather rest in peace.
When I was in the middle of work in my mom’s office, I’ve got news from my mom that my grandpa was in a critical condition. So, we rushed back home. My mom thought of going back to taiping alone with my auntie. However, news came that he left 1 day life. The doctor said that something had caused his blood contaminated and weakened/damaged his main organs in the body. So, the whole family went to taiping. Except for my grandma, she’s physically weak to handle the shock. We reached there about 7 or 8 evening. We were allowed to enter and visit him in the ICU one person at a time. When it was my turn, as I was standing by his bed side, I have no idea why, tears began to well up my eyes. He was already in coma. As if he was in a deep sleep.
Thursday 16th July,
After our breakfast, we went and visited him. I held his hand. I felt his hand’s muscle reacted, as if he was holding mine. His closed eyes moved a little at the same time. Somewhat, I felt that he knew my presence.
At noon, the doctor asked whether to take the risk for surgery or wait for his death. So, the elders in my family decided to take on the risk eventhough it just less than 10% chance.
The surgery was successful. The cause of the problem has been removed. He was saved but there’s still need to wait to overcome the critical time.
Everyone was happy and glad. However, this temporary relief had lead to further disappointment.
Friday 17th July,
After breakfast, we’ve received call from the hospital that the whole family needs to be there. The doctor said that his heart was getting weaker and anytime(less than 1 day) he can pass on. About 1.25pm he passed. My aunties told us that before he passed, they told him that he can peacefully move on and they will take care of my grandmother well. That’s when around that time he had passed.
Some were left behind to take care of hospital business and some went off to prepare for funeral procedures and ceremonies, newspaper publishes, tomb, etc.
I was one of those that stayed behind. We followed my deceased grandpa to the mortuary and then to my uncle’s home for funeral.
About evening, my grandma arrived. Initially, she looked calm. But as she was asked to see the deceased, she broke down to tears. It was a heart aching sight. All her children including my mother were crying and embracing her. Step by step she moved towards to coffin. At one point, before she reached the coffin, she was so scared that she dared not move towards it. Eventually, she came face to face with the deceased. Everyone was in tears. Truly a grieving scene.
Later on, everyone calmed down and continue the funeral ceremonies. The ceremony will be held for 3days 2nights.
Saturday 18th July,
The ceremony continues. Many people were lack of sleep and looked tired.
Sunday 19th July,
The day of entombment.
Everyone went and sent him off, except for grandma; she’s too weak to go.
The deceased will be having fire burial.
Most of us went back (KL) on the same day, including me. But I had to stay at grandma’s house for the night due to transportation convenience.
My mom and uncle stayed back to collect the deceased’s ash and handled a few minor funeral procedures the next day.
Monday 20th July,
My mom came and picked me up from grandma’s place, then sent my uncle back to Singapore.
Reached home about 9.30pm.
I’ve learnt a lot from this experience. Everything has a purpose in this life. I’ve gained many respects for the elders through this experience; I’ve learnt about funeral ceremonies; Learnt about letting go; Learnt about being true to one-self; Learnt about strength to move on; Learnt about religion and spiritual strength; and many more.
May my grandfather rest in peace.
Tuesday, 7 July 2009
My New Watch!
My New Watch!
This is my second branded watch.
My first branded watch was BUM sports(don't know what model), got it when I was Secondary3(about 6/7years ago) with my own money.
This new one, I just got it today.
Let me show the specifications first before I present the model.
•. Shock resistant. •. LED light. Afterglow. •. World time. 29 time zones (48 cities), city code display, daylight saving on / off. •. 1/100-second stopwatch. Measuring capacity: 59'59 .99''. Measuring modes: Elapsed time, split time, 1st-2nd place times. •. Countdown timer. Measuring unit: 1 second. Input range: 1 minute to 24 hours (1-minute increments and 1-hour increments). Other: Auto-repeat. •. Daily alarms. 5 independent daily alarms. •. Hourly time signal. •. Edit: Button operation tone on / off, alarm beeper pattern (3 patterns), 12/24-hour format, 00-second animation on / off. •. Full auto-calendar (to year 2099). •. Regular timekeeping. Analog: 2 hands (hour, minute (hand moves every 20 seconds)). Digital: Hour, minute, second, pm, month, date, day. •. Accuracy: ± 30 seconds per month. •. Approx. battery life: 2 years on SR726W X 2. •. Size of case / total weight. 44.9 X 39.5 X 13.5 mm / 35 g.
Nice?
I think it is awesome. ^_^
How does it look like?
*My phone spoiled - cannot take the picture of my watch with me, plus lazy to search for camera to take and load into the pc. So, I'm taking the google's model pics for display.*
The model that I got is BG-92L-7BDR, while the displayed pic above is BG-92L-7B.
Anyway, the retail price is about RM399.00.
(But the online price I saw was way more expensive)
My mom used her coupons for eCosway to redeem.
So, I got this for free! ^o^
Awesome!
It looks great!
Awesomely light(as in weight)!
Cool features!
Small enough to fit my wrist!
Suitable for sports!
Envious ler~~
Saturday, 4 July 2009
Happy 2nd Anniversary J-kun!
Despite my solemn post below,
I would like to have a toast to our 2nd year of anniversary.
May we be well, happy and peaceful.
Love you with my heart.
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