Deng deng deng..

7th April I suspected that I got dengue... that night was still enjoying the Talent Quest Event. My whole body was covered with many red dots(like rashes). I tried calling my mom..she didnt pick up. Most probably she's sleeping. Didnt dare to bother sha zhu coz he got exam.

8th April.. right after progress test(didnt do well).. my friend(Ben) bring me to the town to see doc. Took some blood samples and got some med. Total: RM85. T.T" Need to borrow money from fren(Rick) coz pook-kai edi. While waiting for my blood test results.. I followed all the dota-kakis go cc play. Got pawned like no problem. Then when got my blood test result..platlet count drop like no problem also. Doctor said I need to do dripping at the clinic for a few hours or admit to hospital. So in the end, decided to admit into hospital. Initially was very exicited to enter hospital. My 1st time gona stay at hospital mah. =P Went SunwayHospital..room all full, called SJMC also full, Assunta also full, in the end, end up at Bangsar Pantai Hospital. So, that night stay at hospital. Water drip..not nice.. T_T Other than that, the service was alright. I was like a queen. Being fed and sleep and watch TV all on the bed. LOL. ^o^ 11th morning, my platlet count finally increase abit. So doc decided to let me go. But actually the platlet count was still quite low(lower than nomal ppl). Well, I was still dengue negative and still cannot find out the cause of the sickness. Anyway, I got sick of the hospital. Kept getting needles poking me everyday. Need to draw blood sample twice a day. Plus.. my veins were swollen and had to change different positions for dripping(3times!). Imagine that a needle about 5cm long enters your skin and lay parallel to your bone for a few days! And everytime you go toilet or move your hand too much... blood will be coming out instead(as in enters the water drip pipe instead of the water enters my vein). @o@" When I finally got out from the hospital, I was so glad. T_T"

However, I still had many pressure. Need to study, lab reports, mini projects, etc. In addiditon to that, I was supposed to be mc for that week. But i just cant spare away my time. too many things need to be done. Then, got 1 time, suddenly was so low-blood pressure to the point that I cant even walk. Moreover, I was still at uni that time. I tried contacting alot of people. Finally someone(Lian Hing) replied..I was so glad that i was in the verge of tears. Then, Wenshan came to fetch me to dinner and back home. Haiz..this shows how fragile I was. Anyway, after many suffering and resting, I am now back to normal. But still need to look after my health. My mommy has been stuffing me with lotza good food and pills. Haha.. =P

Anyway, I would like to thanks those that had supported me mentally and physically during this hard time. Thank you mommy, papa, sha zhu, wenshan, lian hing, benjamin, jon, rick, marcus chee, feichai(liau) and the dota kakis(kowei, ahchan, shim, kok boon, sisiang & andrew). Thanks a million! ^_^

p.s. Please ignore my broken english. Lazy to think.. coz need to think too much for the coming exam edi. ^^"

Beauty..

Adapted from http://www.ikedaquotes.org/beauty.html

ON WOMEN'S BEAUTY..

I find a woman's face weathered from numerous storms in life to be beautiful. No matter what her age, just like the beauty of grains on wood that deepens with passage of time, beauty that has endured hardships shines with a distinctive splendor.


When one sees a woman for what she really is, free of decoration or cosmetics, I believe her life in all its naturalness, and her true, indestructible beauty emerges. But what is this elusive quality called beauty?


In ancient Chinese literature the so-called beautiful woman looks thin and fragile. Her feet are tiny, because they have been bound, and she looks frail, almost sickly. That seems to have been the preference at a certain time. But later, in the T'ang dynasty, an ideal woman was someone voluptuous and healthy-looking. Even today, many cultures consider plump women to be beautiful and young women are strongly encouraged to eat well. This may sound incredible to women who live in societies where tall and thin models set the trend for what is considered beautiful.


In my country, Japan, too, the definition of beauty seems to vary according to the times. Beautiful women who were portrayed in wood-block prints during the Edo period had long faces, thin eyes and large, protruding chins. But, after the Second World War, women who were quite buxom were suddenly considered attractive. This makes me question how there can be such different standards in society concerning women's beauty.


Women tend to find themselves caught in a trap that makes them eager to fit themselves in the mold of "the beautiful woman"�a standard set by the social trends of the time.


The purpose of this endless pursuit, and who it is for, are often forgotten. Perhaps, in the end, the pursuit of beauty is actually for yourself, so that you can feel good when you look at yourself in the mirror. If the purpose of beauty is to be attractive to others, then, I would honestly recommend that this time and energy be spent on polishing and cultivating your inner self; your character, as I think that would be much more effective in serving your purpose.


Whether it be your boyfriend, husband, or friends...why are they attracted to you? I am sure it's not only because of your looks but because of who you are, what they find in you, the beauty of your mind and your personality. No matter how pretty a woman is, if her attraction is only in her physical looks, I don't think the appeal will last, but rather fade away with time. True, lasting attraction to another human being comes from an inner beauty and confidence that shine from within.


I once heard a story from a woman who had gone to her twentieth high school reunion. She made an astonishing discovery. Most of the women who had been beauties in their youth looked rather dull, while many of those who had been plain now shone with an inner beauty. As she talked to these friends from many years back, she realized that some of those who had been beautiful had not had to make much effort to attract attention, and this rather self-satisfied attitude had stayed with them through the years, while the more plain-looking women had clearly been working to develop themselves and had become truly attractive as human beings.


For me a woman's true beauty lies not in her appearance, but deep within her heart. A woman who makes all-out efforts and who exerts herself wholeheartedly in her field is beautiful; she really shines. She looks sharp and focused and full of confidence. This kind of radiance will always outshine for me any external beauty related to what a woman is wearing. In fact those who are aware of their inner beauty don't need to seek borrowed beauty from outside. And, sadly, those who care only for their physical appearance are often spiritually impoverished and trying to conceal that lack with exterior trappings.


We all long for things of beauty-beauty of nature, of appearance, of life, a beautiful family and so on. But these cannot be gained if we are withdrawn and isolated, just looking at ourselves. We must create better relationships with other people and interact with our community and society with an open heart. We must be kind to nature. It is only through this process that we really grow and cultivate our own beauty.


A woman who can praise, appreciate and wholeheartedly respect those around her is more beautiful than another who is constantly criticizing others. In the same way, someone who can find joy and excitement of her own in her daily life, or even in nature and the changes of the seasons, has the warmth and brightness that can give a sense of peace and comfort to others. Being an expert in discovering beauty makes one beautiful.


The famous sculptor Rodin once said that beauty is not found in one woman but in every woman. And he identified the source that lights up this beauty as the "flame in one's inner life." The flame of a pure heart, the flame of compassion, the flame of hope, and the flame of courage. These flames are the source of light which enable women to shine with beauty.


It is said that "A woman's beauty shines with age." I find so much wisdom in these words. People normally connect beauty and youth, and cannot link the word "beautiful woman" with "older woman." A young woman in her teens is indeed beautiful, but there is a different kind of beauty that is found in women in their 30s, 50s, even 70s. When we seek beauty inside a person, we will realize that a truly beautiful woman is a person whose inner beauty continues to deepen and be cultivated with time.


Buddhism teaches that your physical appearance is a reflection of your inner self. Hence, a truly beautiful woman knows who she is and what her strengths are and is happy and confident to be true to herself.


Today we live in an age where commercialism determines what is "beautiful," but please remember that you cannot find true beauty in these fashionable trends. Beauty cannot be bought with money either. Many insecure young women tend to become confused by such messages sent out by the mass producers of today's society, but I feel that appreciating and realizing your own beauty means establishing a secure and robust inner self that will not be swayed by outer circumstances.


Every woman can be beautiful. It all begins by believing in your own beauty.

Aiya..

Just dropping by to inform....

Din't managed to get through the semi-final for my uni's singing competition.
Got the news 5days ago. ^^"

For the past few days didn't have much inspiration to do anything.
Have been searching a way to boost my spirit.. wanted to go climb mountain, shout, scream, dance, sing..... anything that can pour out my negative thoughts out.

Today, my spirit seems to be rising bit by bit.
Yokata~

Peekaboo..

I know.. i know..

I have not been updating for some time again. ^^"

I've been really busy and all. Actually, I'm quite busy now. Suppose to do lab report now. But things are just getting too stressful. So I decided to just drop in and express my thoughts.

There are too many things to tell in details.

In summary, about 2months ago my room got break-in. Then lotz of assignments and reports need to handle. Then need to build calculator(mini project. Yessh.. believe it or not.. cool ler? =D).

Other than that, I ended up joining talent quest in uni(something like american idol). Actually I wasn't planning to join. Somehow something is calling me to join. Most probably it is my little dream of becoming a superstar someday. =P I made it through the audition and got into semifinal. Now still waiting for the results whether I'm in for the final or not. ^^" All the best to me. Well, this is the best chance for me to test out my skill on how good am I. Maybe I have the potential to go into the entertainment industry. ^o^" (just kidding.. )

Anyway, just ignore my grammatical errors. I don't have the time to check and correct my english here and now.

hmmm... What more do I need to add...?

Oh ya...

I've managed to make more friends this semester too. =D Managed to find a few friends that I can trust as well. And I'm still looking forward to make more friends and good ones too.

Lastly, I miss my Assunta friends [esp. Yin Khuan, Zie Wei, Alin, June Lau(had to ad ur surname.. u know la.. i'm also June ma), Jessica, Sou Leng, ..], A-level friends [Sha zhu, hor-chan, CL, professor K.O, the Heng, ..] and my friends over here as well. And my Mom as well (love her).

Hehe.. this semester I can say that I feel quite alone. The reason is that I've decided to spend more time for studies. So there are many things I have to sacrifice. Well, I've set my mind to achieve my dreams. I will persevere through~

That's all readers.

All the best to me!

My New Year Resolution(2009)

Finally an update!

here goes..

1. Be more hardworking in studies and housework

2. Be more active in sports

                            

3. Better control over my emotions

4. Make more friends

              

5. Smile more

6. Read more books

                                

7. Have a more peaceful mind

8. Appreciate more things

9. Be more loving

  

10. Go camping

All the best to me~

       

The beginning of Warcraft and DotA in my life...

Eto..

A few days after my summer holidays were over,

the normal rotting days are back again.

Eversince I got back from Bahau trip, I've been wanting to play dota more(bad influence from evil ppl).

So, I decided to reformat my desktop to make it more efficient again.

After a few days of struggling with the computer(it was my first time reformatting a comp.), finally I get to start playing warcraft3!

As usual, for a noob, I don't know where to start, I straight away played the Frozen Throne. After a few guides from the dota-addict, ShaZhu, I finally know where to open the Reign of Chaos.

In the beginning, I have been playing warcraft with the guide of the walkthrough.

Then slowly, the game got tougher, I cheated a little(iseedeadpeople). Eventually, I kind of got tired of losing. So I decided to use more geng cheat (whosyourdaddy) from the end of the Undead Campaign onwards.

After finishing Reign of Chaos in a few days, move to Frozen Throne(cheated until the end). Finish everyting except Bonus campaign[Founding of the Durator]coz' I was kind of tired with campaign game. I can't wait to start training with different maps. I will finish off the bonus campaign in future.

Initially, I played 1v1 game with AI. But I always lose.

I'm still very noob. Somehow I got tired with 1v1 game, so I began playing dotA instead.

Last time, my friends recommended Sniper for me since Sniper is a noobish hero(they said, not me).

So, I started with Sniper.

At the beginning, I started with all easy allies and opponents. Bit by bit, I raised them until all my allies are normal and opponents' insane. I kept winning with Sniper.=D

Sniper

Since I coped quite well with Sniper, I decided to start with another hero.

I asked ShaZhu to recommend me another noobish hero.

Razor then.

Razor

As before, I slowly raise up until all my allies normal and opponents' insane. However, I wasn't as good as with Sniper. Still need to practice with Razor more.

I tried other heroes as well. Traxex and Akasha. But I'm too sucky with both of them.

So, at the moment, I will just focus on Razor and Sniper for practice until I can play online. Anyway, all along, I have been playing warcraft and dota with AI. So, it is nothing great about my skills. ^^"

Traxex

Akasha

Oh ya.. my desktop just died 4days ago. So, I havn't got the chance to practice at all. Moreover, my mom's old laptop, which is going to be mine soon, I still cant take over it yet. So I still can't play DotA online yet. ^^"

Anyway, sorry for not updating my blog for than a month. As you know, I had been busy with my gaming life. =D

Since my comp. died, I should have more time to update my blog more frequently. Stay tune then...

oh ya.. it's not like I havn't been exposed to DotA until recently. I was introduced to dotA last year Sept. But that time I din't have the right conditions to be heavily into it. Now, you can call me an addict!

I MISS DOTA! T_T

DOTA ROX!! ^o^

My Summer Holiday

It has been a month since I have became 20 year old. When the Summer Solstice arrived, it was when my summer holiday began. Although I have been having holiday since December 2007 until now, this month is the most thrilling one, as in the most activities of all months.

There is no need for me to repeat again about how I celebrated my birthday on 21^st June (I’ve already posted it on my previous post). Let’s move on to elaborating other activities that I was involved during my summer…

On 23^rd June, 2 days after my birthday, went to Sunway to meet up with ShaZhu and Hor. I spent some time with ShaZhu, as I thought that might be my last time meeting him before he leaves for Singapore (which was not the last time yet). Went to Sunway Piramid, had lunch at Kim Gary. Then ShaZhu leaver. Hor and I went to cinema and watched Get Smart. Later, sent Hor back to IMU. I went back home…

On 25^th June, joined the A-level July2006 intake lunch gathering. I went to IMU to fetch Hor, CL, Suanne and err..I forgot who liow. Reached Mid Valley, went MPH waited for others, went to look at some toys, and headed for Nandos for lunch. Later everyone leaver, CL and I followed Hor go buy his watch-strap. Then CL leaver also. I followed and sent Hor back to Sunway coz’ I wanted to go Medan CC and play (long time dint play DotA edi). Heng came while we were having the last game. I had my dinner at Medan and went back home…

On 28^th and 29^th June, I had to attend some seminar which my mom was supposed to attend but she cannot make it coz’ she was sick. I have learnt many things over there. The seminar was conducted by the students of Bob Proctor. It helped me to learn more on how to apply the Law of Attraction in life.

On 2^nd July, Sunway Lagoon trip. YK fetched Gaya, me and then June to Sunway Lagoon to meet up with Zie, Lin, and Lat. We had lots of fun there. As far as I can remember, we first went to wet-park: the small beach, slides, magic carpet, and then big sandy beach. Later we headed for dry-park: I can’t remember much on which activities we went but very few only coz’ we were running out of time. Gaya had to run off earlier than us coz’ she had to send her boyfriend away to study abroad. We all bathed and headed for karaoke. The service in Redbox on that day was very poor. The waiters had been going in and out of our room for almost more than 10times due to service problems. What a disturbance. We weren’t able to enjoy the karaoke fully. Later, we all headed for Kenny Roger’s for dinner. We ate and chatted there quite long. Gaya’s parents were bugging her to go home, so we had to rush back. YK fetched June, me and then Gaya back. We had a fun day. Reached home…

On 4^th July, we celebrated Jess’s belated birthday (which was supposed to be on the 3^rd). YK fetched me, and then Zie. We went to June’s house to prepare and give Jess her surprise party. While waiting for Lin and Lat to reach June’s house, I played June’s FF12 ps2-game. When Lin and Lat arrived, everyone was having their last minute preparation before Jess reached. When Jess reached, we were all hiding in June’s study room(upstairs). June made Jess waited for 5mins in the house before the “attack”. In the end, Jess was only half-surprised. She kind of knew there would be a surprise. LOL. We had our spaghetti and salad lunch which was made by Lin and Lat. And we had lots and lots of food (can’t remember what edi). Then, we watched Alvin and the Chipmunks. Had pancakes made by June. We went jogging around the housing area. And came back for the cake, the birthday cake was made by YK, Lin, June and Lat (if I’m not mistaken). The food that I brought was taken home by everyone as our tummy were going to explode if add another bite. YK fetched me home. Reached home….

On the 4^th was also special for another reason. It was the anniversary of __________. =D Glad that he remembered and reminded me. ^_^

On 12^th July, my first Bon Odori festival. YK fetched me and then June at about 5sumting. We went to Zie’s house. My first time in Zie’s house, was planning to raide her house, but her mommy was at home. So my plan failed. Later we got into Zie’s mom’s car and she fetched us there. Lin, Lat & Lat’s bf was supposed to follow our car. But they got lost and miraculously reached that place by luck. LOL. The first thing we did over there was to buy food. I was very hungry! On the way, saw many Japanese families, Japanese-freaks, manga-freaks and weirdos. LOL. We had to miss our 1^st round of the cultural dance because we were busy buying and eating dinner. That place was packed like hell even though it was huge. We get to join the 2^nd round of the cultural dance. It was fun and confusing for me. It tooked me a long time to get a hang of the steps. After the dance, Lin, June, Lat & Lat’s bf had to go. We gave them hugs and then they left. We went back to the food place and lined up for the shaved-ice. It took us more than 30min to get it. The line was packed and people kept cutting lines. Haiz. But in the end, it was all worth it. The shaved-ice was delicious as it has all our sweat in it (not literarily). We missed our last cultural dance as we had sacrificed it for the shaved-ice. Later, we hang out around the stadium while waiting for Zie’s mom to fetch us. Reached Zie’s place, then YK fetched me back. On the way, YK told me that the Mummy movies always scares her. (sweat!) Reached home…

On 15^th – 17^th July, Bahau Vacation. First day, I had to wake up early to wash up and pack some left out stuff. About 8.30am look for taxi to fetch me. Reached Sunway College to get my A-Level official cert. Went to Hor’s house. Waited for them to get ready and for the taxi to arrive. About 9.30am taxi arrived. On the way, uncle taxi fetched Heng from Sunway Piramid to his Uni first. Then he only fetched us to Kelana Jaya LRT Station. Uncle taxi is so talkative, talked none stop until the end. ^^” We sat LRT to Pasar Seni. Reached there and look for bus to Seremban. Reached Seremban, we blur-blur took the bus that drives to Kuala Pilah and then only to Bahau. Made ShaZhu waited quite long. Reached Bahau, The further story, I think ShaZhu can explain better than me. Click here to read more. While they were all dotaing, I’ve learnt a lot when watching them play. I’ve understand a little bit more about DotA. I don’t feel that noob edi. [keke] I really had a wonderful time there. Enjoyed lots of wonderful food. If I stayed there longer, I would be fat! LOL. Overthere, I get to be with someone that I like (or love) and comfortable to be with, kind of felt a little bit “bahagia”. Last day, noon, we bid our farewell to ShaZhu and that would be the last time we see each other before he’s off to Singapore. On the way back, I have already started to miss that place. We reached back Pasar Seni and took bus back to Sunway. We had Kim Gary for lunch+dinner. Then went to Hor’s house to take my stuff. Waited and rest over there for awhile before I took taxi home at about 7pm…

That’s all. This is my summer adventure. ^_^